Current location: Jersey and PA
Profession: Trauma Social Worker and Graduate school student.
Enjoys: Anything that doesn’t have to do with school. For example, reading (not textbooks), yoga, running, kick boxing, swimming, music and photography (both being in front of the camera and taking pictures, although I’m no professional). I also enjoy wandering aimlessly around whatever city I happen to be in, it’s the best way (imo) to learn any city!
Starting weight/size: Currently I’m a size 6 and I’m about 145 lbs.
I always seem to struggle with describing myself for anything. I could write forever and you may still not get the gist of who I am, but I’ll try.
In high school and really all through my childhood I was big into sports. Not so much the competitive aspect of them, but I really enjoyed being on a team and the practices, yes I’m weird. Anyway, when I went to college my life got turned upside down and I lost the drive to continue with sports. I was also diagnosed with Bipolar II during college, and I struggled with incorporating this new aspect of “me” into my life.
After I graduated I became increasingly wrapped up in my job. To this day, I still struggle with my workaholic tendencies. I love what I do, there’s no question about that, but at that point it left little time to do much of anything for myself. Then I got sick. I’ve had various stress related disorders, stomach ulcers and generalized anxiety disorder (which is partially work and partially left-over college relationship issues). It got so bad I ended up taking a medical leave of absence in 2005 because my ulcer had started bleeding. Fun times. I was also becoming increasingly over-weight, both from over eating and my current medication. I would work out occasionally and this would make me feel better, but then something would come up and I’d stop going and working out for months. I took a bunch of self-defense classes and did some kickboxing here and there, but at that point, I wasn’t really ready to acknowledge I needed to make some changes. I ignored my weight until 2008.
When I finally got around to taking a good hard look at what was going on in my life personally, I was working and had been accepted to graduate school for my Masters in Social Work (MSW). I was also living in a much bigger city, up north, not in the south where food that was bad for me reigned supreme. By 2009 I had decided to make lifestyle changes because if I couldn’t take care of myself, there was no way I would be able to help the clients I worked with.
Before I got the motivation to start working out again, I changed how I was eating. I started buying fresh, bringing my lunch to work, eating smaller meals (but 6 instead of 3), and prepping my food so that I could cook faster after long days at work. I even would make a few meals over the weekend and put them in the freezer so that I could just heat them up when I REALLY didn’t want to cook. I cut out soda and fast food, all of it, and I don’t miss it. Last time I tried to eat fast food, back in 2009, I got nauseous and threw up, haven’t touched it since.
As far as working out, I used to “gym hop.” This meant that I would go to a gym, sign up for their free trial, use the gym for as long as I could, then not sign up for the membership and move on to the next gym that was offering a free trial. This worked for me for quite some time and on my salary, I just couldn’t afford the monthly membership… sad, I know. I eventually found a gym I really liked and decided to go all in and really lose the weight I wanted to. At my heaviest, I was around 230 lbs.
I went all in. I got a trainer, who kicked my ass twice a week for 6 months. I fell in love with kickboxing. I tend to get worked up about some of the stories I hear from the people I work with, stories of violence that no one should EVER have to go through, and it makes me want to hurt people. So I kick box instead. It’s much better than me getting arrested and losing my job. When it’s nice out I enjoy running and biking. Neither of these things work for me in a gym, though. I hate running and biking to nowhere; in my head, there’s really no point to it, but to each their own. I still enjoy swimming, a residual leftover of my high school days when I swam competitively. I also love yoga, it’s very relaxing to me. However, I’m still fascinated with how “bendy” some people are. Yea, I’m not quite there yet.
I think that about covers the basics. It’s definitely not my whole story, but it’s enough for now. I enjoy writing and may enjoy a guest spot here and there thanks to my wonderful friends here. Grad school unfortunately keeps me occupied more than most of the time so there’s no personal blog to learn more. You’ll just have to wait and see what else I come up with here!